we have a new placement!:)

well its been a crazy few days with so many calls from our agency and from cps. we had 6 different calls for 6 different babies, we said that we were available and willing to take a baby but then we never heard from the case worker. we were selected for one four month old baby boy but before we could go get him, he stopped breathing and rushed to phoenix children's hospital and we never heard about him again:( so sad to think that he is there all by himself. and I also have learned a lesson to NOT go shopping for diapers and clothes until you have the baby at your house because its never a guarantee.

but after all the different calls and the back and forth, we received a call  last night about taking an 18 month old little girl. we really had said that we wanted to stay between age 0-1 to start but went ahead to say yes. it was such a sad scene when she was dropped off. even tony said, 'this is so crazy'. it was almost eight o'clock, she was a sleep in the back of the case workers car, her baby brother was in the car seat next to her (we can only take one child, so they had to be separated) :( and then case worker handed her over to me, gave me the bag with one outfit, a few diapers, and then she left. Little Jillie (not real name) woke up as we came inside and she was so confused, she whimpered for several minutes looking at all the unfamiliar faces. then after comforting her, it did not take too long for her to warm up. so crazy to me that even though we had people over (we were having a bbq) that she knows who the foster mom is. thats how baby boy was too. she was calling me mama within the first 5 minutes. its very different to have a little bit of an older child than a baby. its so sad she is terrified of tony. anytime he talks to her or goes near her she runs to me. don't even want to think about the type of men she has been around or lives with. I guess parents have not cooperated with cps as far as drug tests, appointments, etc. so they are hoping this will be a reality check for them. so sad its at the expense of the kids. in spite of everything baby Jillie is super happy and runs around overwhelmed on what toy she wants to choose to play with. the kids love her, and she slept good last night. she will not eat anything yet, just drinks milk, hopefully we can find something she likes. prayers for this sweet girl!!