there is no way I did not know this boy three months ago!

He is just so special! And he just feels like one of mine now. And then he goes to his visit yesterday and his mom draws him a picture that says MOMMY LOVES YOU and I remember oh wait he is not mine. I have only know him for three months, he has another mommy. A mommy that loves him but is not able to take care of him:( Makes me so sad for her. I don't know her at all, but because he is so amazing regardless of how great or not great she is, what a loss for her. She is missing so much. R is so precious and loves his mommy and daddy so much that when we tuck him in and sing and pray with him, if either of us forget to pray for his mommy and daddy he is so quick to remind up and says 'mommy, daddy, mommy, daddy'.

I talked with his case worker today and the judge did rule for severance for their case, so R and his two sisters will be going up for adoption. And then she asks, "would you take him?" It just still blows my mind. Are we talking about a dog or a child? And by the way, this case worker has never met us in person. Would you take him? And this is the same child that was passed off to us in a parking lot at 9 o'clock at night three months ago. SO WRONG. But my hearts answer to that question is a huge, giant  YES!! YES we will keep him forever. But I don't think its that easy. We of course will be in prayer and seek God in this. They will first try to find anyone that can take all three kiddos. But she said she is open to finding separate homes if needed. WOW a lot to think about, we could be a permanent family of five. But once again trying to guard my heart and not get any hopes up. And not even thinking about what it would be like to say goodbye to this sweet boy. Trusting God in this and knowing he has R's future in his hands no matter what.

Children's Museum

I just love experiencing fun things with this guy! Caleb and Kirea have always been blessed with a consistent family that loves them and does fun things with them. But R appreciates and gets more excited about things than most three year olds would that have not been through what he has been through. He talks about the fun things we do for days. I'll never forget when we were at Fry's two days after he was placed with us I bought him a Cars sippy cup and he started jumping up and down saying 'gank you, gank you'! He acted as though it was best thing anyone has ever bought him. Once again this kid is just a blessing to us. I realize that he may not always be this grateful and we may face issues down the road because of all he has been through but now I just feel lucky to have been picked to love on him and that he is a part of our family for now!

Polar Express

This kid LOVED every minute of this trip. The snow (I am not sure if has seen snow before but he didn't act like it), the hotel room, the hot cocoa and cookie, santa, and THE TRAIN. He is obsessed with trains so we could not have come up with a better trip for him. This was the first time taking our older kids as well so it was fun to live through their excitement and fun. I will forever have the memory snuggling with with R in my lap and Kirea sitting next to me singing Christmas Carols on the Polar Express. Fun Times!