I have been a major slacker with posts. Things have been so busy with life with three kids, graduations, CIY youth camp, Tony's hamstring surgery. But I think we MAY, just may, be at the end of it and get to take a breather and enjoy some relaxing time this summer as a family. Baby J is doing really, really well. I eventually had to get to the point that I had to pull back from dealing with the parents. They were getting extremely demanding, questioning everything, and then the birth dad got very rude and hostile with our pediatrician. I was being treated like a high paid nanny that needed to do whatever they said. It was creating so much anxiety in me it was affecting all areas of my life such as ministry, marriage and being a mom. Fostering has been much easier with that stress taken off, we did truly want to have a relationship with the birth parents and reach out to them, love them because I can not imagine how hard what they are going through has to be. But I had to reevaluate what my role is as a foster mom and that's not to try to please the birth parents but to love baby J as our own, include her in our family, meet her needs, and continue on with our life as much as possible. That is whats best for our family and also for baby J so she does not have a foster mom that is stressed out to the max all the time. J still goes to her visits once a week and I send emails with pictures and such.
But anyhow I was really feeling the need to get back on and start blogging again, because I feel it happening..I am getting so attached.. This time took a little longer for several reasons I think, two year olds are hard! Her parents were hard, Kirea was having such a hard time, it was just such an adjustment. But now when she is gone or I am gone, I miss her terribly, I feel that connection, hard to explain, but like my heart is attached to her. She is just so smart and lovable and easy going. She is so happy and feels so comfortable here. And the way she loves Kirea is just adorable. I have no idea why she loves Kirea because Kirea can be a bossy stinker to her sometimes but I do know she loves baby J as well.
The latest status is that there is a court date at the end of July and it sounds like the lawyer is going to recommend baby J and her little baby brother get to go home and become an "in home" case where CPS is heavily involved. The only thing is I do NOT see the birth parents going along with that since they think they have done nothing wrong, so we will what happens! Just praying to be prepared for whatever happens.
Joslyn would cry and get so mad if we wrestled when she first came, now its her favorite thing to do. She loves to sit on Kirea and they just crack up. <3
